In a span of a few hours this morning, I’ve already felt a roller coaster of emotions. From being eager to come to work despite the thunderstorm, to being grateful for my husband for driving me, to impatiently waiting at the line in the MRT up to losing my temper over an insensitive couple within the car.
How can one person transition from being ‘best behaved’ to the ‘notorious tita in public transportation’ in such short a time?
Yesterday at church, the pastor talked about all sorts of things including having a “double life.”
“Don’t fool yourselves,” he says. “Don’t live a life that is good outwardly but you have a secret life when you’re all alone.”
Am I living a double life? I strive to study God’s words but sometimes fail in my deeds. Not a proud moment. No justification there.
But the pastor also says… although Christianity doesn’t give us the license to sin, as humans, sometimes we fall. We feel trapped and we find ourselves slipping and swiveling down rock bottom.
But the beauty of this is that we can always set our eyes back to Jesus. Consider our sins, repent and ask for forgiveness to strive to become better the next time. And by God’s grace, fully turn away from sin.
We also ought to know our weaknesses and protect ourselves against it. For instance, if I know I hate the crowd, I could have just waited for the next train than squeeze myself into a full car. Pro-activeness is key. :))
Looking back, I learned that I reacted the way I did because I felt inconvenienced. I made the situation about myself instead of thinking they’re having a difficult time too.
I could have also gotten help from a verse:
Proverbs 19:11 The Passion Translation (TPT)
11 A wise person demonstrates patience,
for mercy means holding your tongue.
When you are insulted,
be quick to forgive and forget it,
How do you deal with such situations – where you need the Holy Spirit but forget to call on Him?
We don’t want a double life. Let’s find out together.